Another Story of Jesus Healing a Wounded Heart – Aimee’s Inspirational Testimony of Trauma Healing

When I was 13 my friend was raped and murdered. I lived in a rural area at that time. As a result of that tragedy, I have gone through feeling guilt because I was one of the last people to see her. My Dad and I had driven past her right before the man grabbed her. We did not stop to ask her if she wanted a ride. I felt like it was my fault that she died. I have also felt grief, hatred, and fear. When my daughter turned 12, I began to fear that something like this could happen to her. I feel rage and very deep sorrow when I hear about a child being raped or killed. I still feel sorrow about that event and can become very upset about it. The hardest part about that situation is being one of the last people to see her alive and that we didn’t stop and ask her if she wanted a ride.

 

Other experiences in my life that have been difficult for me include being born with a club foot and having surgery when I was two. I had to be in the hospital for six months and was separated from my parents. When people leave it triggers feelings of abandonment. I did not feel loved as a child and this may be part of the reason why. Also, my first husband was emotionally abusive, manipulative, and controlling. That situation was very destructive for me. I already had a hard time believing I could be loved and this situation made it worse. I felt I was worthless. I divorced him and began building myself back. 6 years later I remarried a man who is the compete opposite of my first husband. He is very encouraging, supportive, and has helped to build me back up. He makes me feel very loved.

I went through the healing group and equipping session April 1-9, 2022. My cousin invited me to go. She said she felt the Holy Spirit tell her to ask me to go to this equipping with her. I felt this would be good for me to go through and then to share with other people. I also felt this was something God had been preparing me for.

I really loved the process of the equipping. It was very helpful. Some healing had already started prior to coming, but this equipping brought even more healing. It taught me that with trauma and grief, size of the situation doesn’t matter because things affect people differently and we shouldn’t dismiss someone’s feelings just because we don’t feel the same as they do. We need to show compassion and love to anyone who is hurting, no matter what.

The second day when we talked about grief, God revealed some things in my life I had not grieved about, so that process has now begun, too.

The most significant thing about the healing group was developing relationships with people I did not know. I have never felt that I belonged in a place as much as I did with this group of people! The grief skit, lament, and nailing pain to the cross were also very impactful and freeing.

I don’t how it all happened. I just know the healing group and equipping were empowering. Being in the room with other people who were also feeling grief and different emotions was helpful. To feel that I was not alone and for people to lean in and listen to me was also very helpful. It made my fire grow. I am eager to share this experience with other people.

Since this event, I feel like some of the burden has lifted. I am excited tell people about it and encourage everyone to go through it, even if they think they don’t need to.

If I had not participated in the event, I think I would still not be grieving those things that were revealed to me. If I had not participated, I would not be empowered like I am now. It built my confidence to share things in front of people. I think if I hadn’t been able to nail the pain to the cross, I would still feel that heavy burden. I would encourage a person considering participating in Trauma Healing to do it. Getting to build new relationships with other people and worshipping God together, even in our pain and brokenness is so amazing! It is so helpful to have the support of other people, who are feeling pain or trauma, and knowing you are not alone in that.